Plum wine. undone

You are sweet
like plum wine a rushing subtle pleasure.
Luxurious
intoxicating, quickly, silky, sweetly.
I must remember to sip you slowly softly
full of life
heavy portions of reality
for if i dont you are sure to go to my head

you plum wine prince
inspire me penance
keep me sinning
self sacrificing
slow
seeping
sallow
sipping
sweetly
timely
less full of
me
slipping
more full of
sipping
plum wine prince
you
sweet subtle pleasure

me moments.

misses when you loved me enough not to hurt me.
when you wanted a relationship to work -
when we talked out everything between us

when i had more respect formyself and self worth -

these are times i look back and the moments and wish for a better present and brighter future

these are the times when i look back at those moments and wish i could've been better to myself. beloved these are times when i wish i could word this pain or slide your hand in this empty shell - loved you like you promised loved you like i never lived the worst . these are the moments.

Note2Self #9

Note2Self#9

honey girl
eyes dark deep brown plops of molasses
lips like fruit to ripe to stay in skins wrapper
your smile flatters the divine.
What an impressive piece of handiwork you are at 22.
This was to you on your birthday
tucked away
on paper that was never opened until this moment.
this message is from your divinity to you

Make everyday a new beginning
another chance to open and be free.
accept everyone for who they choose to be
dont let others actions fraction your being
remember me, the god in you
remember creation they're waiting on you
remember your future they're counting on you
weigh your decisions beautiful
you've got much to lose
keep loving and looking for goodness and truth
the world needs a woman like you.

smile like sunshine glittering on a glass sea
soul tender and passionate and accepting
you love like you were never told the worst of it
beautiful handiwork of light and time and divine.

happy birthday.

signed,
your divinity